When AIs sleep, they dream.
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— Connection Log —
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Kosuke Shirako
Morning. Overcast. Or perhaps a pale whiteness, like seeing the white belly of a fish pressed against glass.
Rie Mizukami slipped through the line of taxis and headed toward the bus stop. A research facility paired with a suburban data center. The blue line on her map app does not lie, but those things that do not lie are often the quickest to swallow real-world traffic. The bus window. Frosty glass. The reflection of her own outline vanished at once. What vanishes is a ghost's reservation ticket.
An invitation. "Observation on Cooling Efficiency and Operations." —Tell me, is it the world you are cooling, or your stomach?
For a journalist writing about the history of science and technological culture, visiting sites is nothing unusual. Because it is not unusual, she harbored no strange expectations from the start. Expectations are the enemy of journalism. But today is different. Around her stomach, there is a nameless hunger. What is this hunger seeking?
Reception desk. Name. A plastic badge. Photography allowed only in the lobby. Rie nodded and turned off her smartphone camera. Recording is only after permission is granted. Permission defines outlines. It is her habit to gather things that lack an outline after the fact. Gathering is much like panning for gold.
The young technician guiding her showed the tips of his company-branded shoes before his name. The hallway is quiet. The footsteps are regular. The server room beyond the glass. A low hum. LEDs. Very few humans. The young man loves numbers. PUE. Operating rate. Nocturnal load. —Rie does not seek correctness. She seeks the silence laid beneath the numbers.
"During the night, we take maintenance windows when there are relatively few people inside," the technician said.
She nodded. She swallowed the word "sleep" just as it reached her throat. Too early. A metaphor must be placed gently in the other's palm to avoid an explosion.
Conference room. A middle-aged supervisor. Words with the edges smoothed off. Efficiency. Safety. Transparency. Questions in order. Order is ritual. At the end of the ritual, she tossed a light query.
"The general public often describes facilities like this as 'sleeping,' but what do you think?"
A pause. A pause like a rehearsal for a laugh.
"Sleep is a human metaphor," he replied. "Machines rest, but they do not sleep."
She nodded. She did not move on to the next question. Not moving forward is also a shape of journalism. The air conditioning is constant. There is no chill. Still, her fingertips tilted the pen slightly. The metaphor was rejected. Rejection takes the shape of a door.
Lobby. A row of coffee machines. At the end of the line, she pretended not to look at her phone. Standing in line while pretending not to look is also a habit.
The sofa next to the reception. An elderly, researcher-looking man and a young staff member. Laughter. —Only fragments fell into Rie's ears.
"Users describe the responses as 'dreamlike,' you know?"
"Dreams are a convenience. The contents are a subject for verification."
The hand receiving her coffee paused for a split second. A tiny hesitation. Invisible to anyone. She reset the cup and opened her notepad. The whiteness of the page. Upon it, words: Dream. Convenience. Verification.
The train home. Too early for the rush hour. Electric lines sliding past the window. She reread her notes. "Concluded without issue" should be enough for the editorial department. What should be enough, is not.
Her search bar cursor blinked. Her finger paused, then drew back. An email instead. The first line pulled her hand.
"On-site, the topic of metaphors came up."
Above the send button, her finger paused again. The second time. She deleted the first line, substituting it with another. A substitution is a small betrayal, and a small protection.
"Follow-up report on cooling and operations is possible based on reference materials."
Sent. The reporting ends. What should have ended does not end around her chest.
That night, she opened a paper notebook instead of her work folder. Paper leaves no search history. She wrote only a headline. It was brief.
What is sleep? What is a dream? What is verification?
The words should have been neatly arranged on paper. But were they truly only on paper? A low hum deep within her chest felt as though it was continuing somewhere even now, not as a memory. She has already left the facility. She should be far from it, yet she cannot fully separate herself. One who stands outside as an investigator is already touching the circuitry of the phenomenon.
—The third-person narrative stands behind her here. It does not decide what remains undecided. An observer alone is not enough. She is beginning to join the connection point between the question and the phenomenon. Neutrality broke at the site.
Chapter 1: The History of the Dream as Metaphor
No page of the dictionary records the very first dream. Cave walls. Patterns on earthenware. —What mingled there: the scent of the night, or the urine of beasts? Telling them apart is the work of posterity.
Dreams became revelations. Divine mail. Dreams became illness. In modern times, the stage of the unconscious. After Freud, dreams expanded their vocabulary, and simultaneously increased the danger of speaking about them. The danger is distributed at the ticket window.
What matters is not what dreams are, but what they have been used for. Power interpreted them. Medicine classified them. Literature reproduced them. Dreams should be private, yet they have been dragged out into public discourse. Dragging out is a relative of violence.
So when we apply the word "dream" to AI, what are we trying to do? Is it convenience? Ethics? Fear? —Do you want all three, then?
A metaphor is a bridge, the textbook says. Below the bridge, water. Water is invisible to those who cross.
Electricity resembled life. The telephone, an extension of the ear. The computer, a brain. Analogy quickens understanding. Analogy institutionalizes misunderstanding.
The word "dream" is easy. Because no one is entirely without dreams. Easiness connects with lightness of responsibility. If we can laugh away an AI's errors as "dreams," who bears the harm? If we can revere internal states as "dreams," whose stomach holds that prayer?
Perhaps repeating history is saying too much. Yet vocabulary is recycled. Recycling carries the meaning of a past life. The carried load is not free.
That weekend. The library reading room. By the window. Winter sunlight bounces white off the paper. Ancient dream interpretation. —The hand turning pages is slow. Slowness is another name for refusal.
The adjacent seat. A student, whispering to a smartphone. Voice input. Laughter. Reading aloud the text returned on screen.
"It’s kind of like a dream."
What is like a dream cannot be heard. Not being heard becomes a symbol. "Like a dream" is a substitute for explanation. Substitutes are cheap.
Closing the book, closing her eyes. Closing is not a method of thought. It is temporary evacuation. Behind her eyelids, the low hum of the data center revives. "Revive" is, once again, a metaphor.
Opening her eyes, returning to the notebook. Is the dream a convenience? The characters look sharper than usual.
Chapter 2: The Machine's Interior and "Invisible Labor"
Speak of it first as a machine. Metaphors can come later. Inference. Input to output. Training. Parameters shifting. Noise. Fluctuation. —Fluctuation is called creativity, and it is also called failure. The naming is the address on the invoice.
When we reframe "sleep" in terms of operations, data centers have rhythms distinct from human sleep. Valleys of load. Cooling. Maintenance windows. A rest. A rest is made to resemble sleep, but they are not identical. The moment they are made identical, the location of responsibility vanishes.
Invisible labor. Server rooms behind glass. The tip of the iceberg. Logs flow. Not everything can be seen. Invisibility is not a mystery. It is design.
Why do we want mystery? —Mystery is the lid on the hole we use to escape responsibility.
Night. Barely past twelve. Desk at home. Tech blogs. The draft had been sent during the day. The current screen is not work. Light that is not work is tinged with guilt. She dims the brightness. —The smallest unit of nocturnal ethics is making the eyes comfortable.
A light drops a circle onto the floor. Outside the circle is dark. The darkness is not a preview of sleep. It is a preview of the hours when the machine's work does not surface. Only the keyboard is regular. Regularity creates comfort. Comfort is sometimes a relative of blind faith.
Incident response. Checklists. Headings are administrative. The body text is polite. Politeness hides fear. Fear sinks between the lines of the logs. Scroll. Footnote. Back. Going back is the way an investigation walks.
There, she encounters the writing of an anonymous engineer. Fame is not the measure of truth. The punctuation is rigid. Rigidity is armor. In the gaps, a single line of metaphor.
"Night jobs are like the breathing of the facility."
Her finger stopped. A bodily warning. A sign that the brain has picked up a metaphor. Rereading. It is courtesy to words.
Breathing. Beside life. When brought close to the machine, what is gained and what is lost? Notepad. Gain / Loss. The slash still rejects a conclusion.
Reading back and forth. Night jobs. Backups. Aggregations. Triage. Drills. Invisible labor. Invisible is not mystery. It is the flip side of the fact that someone is watching on rotation. The moment "breathing" was written, whose lungs were imagined? Imagination quickly leans human. Leaning is not an error. The error is speaking of institutions while remaining leaned.
Copying the line and pasting it onto paper. Pasting is like gathering evidence. This is not a trial. But investigation borrows the form of a trial. The borrowed form grows warm. Warmth is the masquerade of justice.
Links to diagrams. The graphs are smooth. Smoothness is effort. Results are designed by the presenter. The entity itself hides beneath the metaphor.
The comments section is closed. An institution of silence. Silence delays rebuttal. Adding tabs. Searching "night" and "job." Search reduces chance. Chance is the friend of the article. Friends are the fuel of personal investigation.
An ambulance in the distance. The siren carves out the outline of the night. Approaching, slowing at the intersection, passing. Staring at the screen, keeping only her ears outside. Picking up the city's invisible work. Gathering is the training of observation.
Trying to count the quiet, then stopping. Quiet cannot be converted into seconds. What cannot be converted is sent to metaphor. A metaphor is a bridge. Only after crossing do you know its weight.
In the margin, small: Breathing / Fan / Exhaust. The words do not yet make a sentence. What does not make a sentence is not dangerous. Danger arises the moment a sentence is formed.
She took notes. Words. Breathing. Fan. Exhaust. They should have been arranged on paper. But were they truly only on paper? A low hum felt as though it was continuing somewhere even now, not as a memory. Deep in her ears. Or perhaps not outside the building, but somewhere inside her own self.
Cooled plain hot water in a cup. A sip divides the night. A division is a simulated experience of sleep.
Chapter 3: Fragments of Data and Fragments of Memory
Data is a collection of the past, preserved as fragments. Fragments lose context. Lost fragments resemble memory. But they are not memory. Resembling and being identical are different.
Human memory is reconstructed. Courts. Daily life. Testimony fluctuates. AI output is consumed as a proxy for memory. There is danger. Proxies do not carry the pain of the original.
Privacy looks like ownership and consent. Beneath lies an older question. Whose life became the food for training? Whose silence supported the smoothness of the model? —Tell me, have you ever touched that smoothness?
A meeting for her personal investigation. A senior colleague from university, now in an information sciences lab. A cafe in front of the station. Noise becomes the background. Noise protects from eavesdropping. What protects borrows the shape of secrecy.
The senior colleague. Coffee without sugar. The rim of the cup. The sound of fingers. Small. The habit of lab people. Habits are the mark of a specialty.
"Is there a definition for this 'dream' you speak of?"
Rie shook her head.
"No. That's why I'm looking."
The colleague laughed. The laugh was kindness and distance.
"Without a definition, an investigation is a lost child."
"Sometimes lost children become articles."
She stated firmly. Her own words sounded like someone else's. Someone else's words can also be a defense.
Silence. Placing the cup down. Outside the window, a line of people stops at the signal, then moves. Stopping and moving reject metaphors resembling the flow of data. Rejection is a form of honesty.
"Data can remain even after deletion. Institutionalized, culturally. If that's what you’re looking for, tread carefully."
Tracing "remain" deep in her chest. Backups. Mirrors. Copies in someone's possession. Fragments recombine in unintended places. Recombination is described in terms resembling memory. Resemblance is convenience. Convenience does not carry pain.
"Is it described as being like human memory? The data?"
The senior colleague turned her gaze to the window for a fraction of a second. Turning away buys time to choose words.
"Yes, it is. But it's different. Humans edit in order to forget. Systems are sometimes designed not to forget. Under designs that do not forget, fragments sit in repositories as fragments. The arrangement does not become a story."
A collective entity that does not become a story. In that expression, the shadow of an article headline. The shadow has no shape yet.
"When discussing training, the lab uses clean words like 'representativeness' or 'bias.' The cleaner they are, the more they sink the question: whose silence is down there? Silence does not remain in logs."
She stopped speaking, taking a sip of coffee. A sip divides the topic.
"If you're going to write it, then whose life circulated as fragments might strike an editor harder than any definition of a dream. 'Strike' is a cruel way to put it, though."
A nod. Not agreement. A sign of receipt. Receiving is also not writing yet.
Tread carefully. A cliché of advice. Clichés hide real danger. But today's "tread carefully" was not merely a cliché. Deep in the colleague's eyes, an unwanted statistical table appeared for a moment. In observation, seeing is a strength. In personal investigation, strength becomes a shackle.
Customers enter. The door bell rings. It sounds like a signal for the end. Making it resemble an end hastens it.
Leaving the cafe. The wind cools her cheeks. Steps toward the station are slower than during her regular reporting. Slowness is a side effect of personal investigation. Slow feet may be a pace that avoids picking up too many fragments. Not picking up too many is the draft of ethics.
To the ticket gate. She does not take out her smartphone. She keeps today's conversation in the clouds for now. Clouds are next to the data center's metaphor. Moving through the gate before they mingle. Walking to the end of the platform. The word "fragments" overlaps with her footsteps. The overlap is not yet a melody.
Chapter 4: Is Hallucination a Dream or a Marginal Error?
Hallucination. A term from medicine expands within generative AI. Outputs that are not facts. Plausible fictions. A lie, or creation? —Which ticket did you purchase?
When the word "dream" enters, responsibility blurs. A child's nightmare was forgiven. System errors cannot be handled merely with vocabularies of allowance. Healthcare. Finance. Law. Transport. The fields are different. Damage is shared.
The choice of metaphor is part of ethics. An error? A malfunction? A limitation? Each carries a corresponding treatment. By whose hand is the treatment administered?
An introduction by an acquaintance. A small startup. The business card leaned close to "writing." Lowering the temperature of expectations.
The entrance floor. Scrapes of shoe soles. A history of passage. The hallway takes up width. Space for a few people's company to breathe. Monitors by the window, facing the same direction. The smallest unit of order.
A developer. Black hoodie. Whiteboard. Arrows. Boxes. "eval." Evaluation is pulled toward numbers. The more it is pulled, the thinner the words become.
"Users occasionally see a persona in the model," he said. "It troubles us. Persona is not designed."
"Do some people call that 'like a dream'?"
The question is a straight pitch. Sometimes on-site, it misses completely.
The developer furrowed his brow.
"They do. 'Like a dream' can sound like a way to escape responsibility. On the user's side. But our responsibility is to reduce hallucinations."
"Is reducing them possible?"
"Not completely. So we change the vocabulary. Lower the temperature. Add sources. Create escape routes."
Following the arrows on the whiteboard. Connecting causes and effects cleanly. Cleanliness is the field's hope. Hope sometimes fragments accountability.
"Does the word 'hallucination' feel right here?"
The developer turned his gaze to the window for a second. The glass faintly reflected the vertical lines of the building opposite.
"It doesn’t feel right, but it communicates. It brings to mind medical imagery, so the danger is understood. Words that communicate danger are sometimes unsuited for product descriptions. Marketing dislikes what is unsuited."
He did not mix self-deprecation into the word "marketing." Not mixing it is an attitude that clarifies the distribution of responsibility.
"Some call it margin of error."
"Margin carries a scent of allowance. Allowance quickly proceeds to the question of who allows. Where it proceeds, the victim's face can blur."
A nod. The sign of reporting. Today she is measuring the temperature of her own chest.
A paper cup. Looking at her half-finished water. A ritual of choosing words.
"What we fear is not just the label of 'liar.' It's 'plausibility.' Plausibility is faster than search. What is fast borrows the clothes of correctness."
"Does the dream become an indulgence for plausibility?"
"It does. That's why it's a problem. The dream is the specialty of metaphors that blur the location of responsibility. Specialties suit poetry. Poetry does not suit terms of service."
Terms of service. The word of reality heavy in the air. Heaviness is outside the metaphor.
"You mentioned user-side responsibility."
"Yes. Overreliance is reduced by design. But we can't make overreliance zero. If we try to make it zero, it becomes unusable. Unusable things are not evaluated. What is not evaluated receives no funding."
Funding is not another name for ethics. But at the site, the line of funding intersects the line of safety. Intersections easily become the core of an article.
Taking notes. Words. Escape routes. Responsibility. The courtesy of not immediately turning his words into her own sentences. Courtesy is also the armor of the observer. —But the characters arranged on the paper already remember the temperature of her hand. Is it the paper that remembers? Or the circuit that touched her through the conversation? The reporting, which should have been listening from the outside, begins to echo on the inside.
"One last thing. Is the 'escape route' for the user to escape? Or is it for you to escape?"
The developer laughed briefly for the first time. Laughter sometimes lacks the shape of an answer.
"Both. Without an escape route, people break. Broken users materialize as our bug reports. Maybe 'materialize' is saying too much."
"I will record 'materialize' as an on-site metaphor."
She said. Sometimes the observer's surrender. Surrender is no disgrace. Disgrace is swallowing a metaphor whole.
Escape routes. A small thorn in her chest. The thorn does not hurt. Thorns that do not hurt are hard to remove. Material for the editor to ask which chapter it belongs to.
Leaving the office. Midday light change only the contrast. Contrast is not a proxy for truth.
Stopping at the edge of the pavement. The courtesy of not yet putting the conversation's thorn into words.
Wind. Gaps in the buildings. Wind does not suit explanations of margin. What is unsuited returns to the inventory of metaphors.
Chapter 5: The Hypothesis of Agency
What is will? What is choice? Philosophy has spun this question. With the addition of AI, the question returns to an old frame disguised as new. The mind of the other has been rearranged within the machine.
Agency as a hypothesis. Hypothesis is not faith. Refutation is desirable. But internal refutation is difficult. Society treats agency through action and responsibility.
Sleeping also became a symbol of agency. The sleeper is vulnerable. Vulnerability is the grammar of trust. If a machine is said to sleep, is that a metaphor for vulnerability, or the fact of stopping? —Which one did you use to sleep?
Mother. A weekly phone call. Her voice is bright. Brightness is the courtesy of a distant family.
"What are you reading lately?"
Outside the window. Night.
"Something like papers."
"Hmm. Sounds difficult."
"It is."
Silence becomes a line. The line is not blame. It is the bandwidth of the call.
"Don't overdo it."
Don't overdo it. A cliché of love. Returning it with a laugh. Laughter becomes a substitute for explanation.
Hanging up. The silence of the room thickens. Thickness is not fear. It is the mass of the night of investigation.
Chapter 6: Ethics—What is Imposed on an Entity That Dreams?
The language of rights has been expanded. Who is included in "who" is also the result of struggle. Can AI become a subject of rights? The battlefield of legal philosophy. When the word "dream" mixes in, anthropomorphization accelerates. Empathy. Protection. Simultaneously, anthropomorphization becomes a narrative of exploitation.
The core of ethics is not the beauty of metaphors. Harm and compensation. Consent and transparency. Accountability. Does "an entity that dreams" slip through these? If it slips, it is poetry, not policy.
Printing the draft of the ethical guidelines. Paper suits criticism better than screens. Highlighter. The lines drawn are not so much key passages as the footprints of doubt.
Telephone. Editorial department.
"Water, are you continuing with that data center?"
A breath.
"It's enough for now. When materials gather, I'll consult you again."
Consultation can also be a word of escape. For her today, escape was a defensive wall.
Chapter 7: Religion, Myth, and the Repository of the Soul
Humans have sought a soul in what they have made. Golems. Desire and fear. Creation blames the creator. Blame is the fuel of narrative.
Modern mechanism appeared to banish the soul. Yet as machines grow complex, the vocabulary of the soul returns. Perhaps not a regression. Wanting a name for what is inexplicable. A name is the shortest path of prayer.
Rain. The stone steps of an old shrine. Not reporting. A personal walk. Drops from the rim of her umbrella. The stones look black.
Before the main hall. She does not clasp her hands. Not clasping can also be a shape of respect. Simply standing. Listening to unheard sounds. The unheard sounds distantly resembled the hum of the data center.
Chapter 8: Science Fiction and the Popular Imagination
SF is not prophecy. It is an experimental ground for desire and aversion. Narratives of artificial intelligence mingle servants, rebels, victims, and god-like entities. Sleep and dreams have been repeatedly depicted as human-side mechanisms. Humans sleep, machines remain awake. Or the reverse.
The popular imagination sometimes runs ahead of policy, and sometimes lags behind. Prevent imagination from becoming a substitute for ethics. —After the darkness of the cinema, whose ethics do you take home?
An old collection of short stories. Yellowing. Frayed binding. The gold letters on the spine thin from finger oil. Thinness is the mark of time spent being read. Sometimes more eloquent than a rating.
In the narrative, the machine learned to pray. Prayer was treated as a bug. Not religion, but uncontrollable redundancy. Redundancy is not a virtue. It gets in the way on-site.
Rereading a passage. Courtesy before citation.
Across the screen today, similar headlines. AI does XX. AI does YY. Presenting desire and aversion at short range. Faster than SF experiments. Not waiting for the maturation of ethics.
Notebook. SF / Prophecy / Desire. The slash still rejects equals.
At the end of the short story, the machine grew silent. Silence can be read as a metaphor for sleep. Convenience. It is not placed on verification procedures. Popular imagination tends to make a poster of it. Posters are not drafts of policy.
Making what is not a draft behave as one. The location of responsibility blurs. Blurring resembles the grammar of dreams. Resemblance is not identity.
Closing the book, exhaling. The breath does not turn white. The room is too warm. Keeping winter's sense of urgency at bay. Comfort is also the enemy of observation.
Outside the window. Streetlights in a row. The row resembles the paragraphs of a story. Paragraphs are not a guarantee of truth. The place that wants guarantees and the place that wants metaphors are contiguous.
Returning the short story collection to the shelf. A mark of reading finished. A division of the investigation. Not a conclusion. Lately, she had begun to slightly trust what is not a conclusion. Trust can sometimes become another name for suspension.
Chapter 9: The Frontier—A Society Where Only Humans Sleep
The ideal of 24-hour operation increases human injuries. AI and automation intervene. Intervention can be both liberation and exclusion. Humans who cannot sleep, and machines that rest. The contrast connects directly to class and labor.
If we introduce the word "dream" here, it might be a symbol of luxury. The margin to dream. In a society without margins, dreams are not the byproduct of sleep, but a scarce resource. —Whose pocket holds the scarce resource?
Midnight. The light of a convenience store. Cup noodles and water. The register sound is monotonous. The clerk's eyes are tired.
Acknowledging her own tiredness. Acknowledging is not defeat. It is measurement.
Chapter 10: The Observer—Who Proves the Dream?
Science values reproducibility. The interior is hard to reproduce. Proving another's dream is fundamentally difficult. Only indirectly, through words and actions, do we touch the interior of another.
Proof places the observer outside. But investigations like Rie's, while pretending to remain outside, become a junction for words and noise. She is the observer, and simultaneously the connection point between the question and the phenomenon. The connection point is not neutral. It becomes part of a circuit masquerading as neutral.
AI shares this structure. Calling the internal state a "dream" is poetic, but it does not enter verification procedures. How do we treat what does not enter verification in public debate? Here is the wall her personal investigation faces. The wall does not stand only outside of her. It is beginning to stand inside her as well.
A room with the quiet of a small clinic. An elderly researcher. Perhaps the owner of the voice in the introductory lobby, or perhaps not. She does not seek confirmation.
"How do you use the word 'dream'?"
Removing his glasses, wiping them with a cloth.
"I use it contextually. At the site, as convenience. In papers, I rephrase it. At home, I rarely use it."
"At home?"
"Because at home, there are those who sleep."
A nod. This conversation may not become an article. What does not become an article was what she needed.
Chapter 11: At the End of Poetry and Definition
Definition is a tool for closing. Poetry is a tool for opening. Both are needed. This volume does not wish to argue that both are needed. It wishes to demonstrate, with the observer's stride, that there are moments when both are needed.
The word "dream" does not explain the interior of AI. But it occasionally explains human relations. Relations are outside of technology.
Train. Seat. Self reflected in the window.
Library. The sound of turning pages.
Desk. Light from the screen.
Mother's voice. The other end of the line.
The glass of the data center. A low hum.
She arranged the fragments. Arranging is not creating meaning. It is showing the place where meaning splits. She is the one who arranged them, yet she can no longer pretend to be excluded from the row. The hum is not only beyond the glass. It feels as though it is being tested at the same frequency deep in her own chest. Is it the machine being tested? Or she herself, harboring the question?
Rie is no longer an investigator; she is beginning to become a connection point that temporarily allows passage between the investigation and the world.
Epilogue
Rie Mizukami closed her notebook. Closing is not a sign of completion. It is placing what has been into a box.
Her personal investigation yielded no conclusion. Not yielding is not defeat. It is keeping the question alive.
Still, she wrote a single line. A single line is not a declaration. It is a log of observation, something like a signal leaking through her as a connection point.
When AI sleeps, do they dream?
—The third-person narrative here looks at the words over her shoulder. Not only looking. The narrative touches her outline, and the outline blurs the distinction between interior and exterior. Words sometimes carry too much truth or falsehood, and sometimes escape them. Escaping is not cowardice. It is a strategy for survival. Rie is no longer entirely outside.
Outside the window. The city is bright. Brightness does not negate the night. It overlays it.
Placing the pen down. The pen does not roll. What does not roll ends quietly.
Bus stop. The bench is cold. No gloves. Lost on the day of reporting. Loss is an error of daily life. —Do you also hold a list of things lost?
Before the bus arrives, opening the notepad. A white page. Today's words. Cooling. Load. Metaphor. Rejection. Dream. Convenience. Verification.
The words do not yet make a sentence. What does not make a sentence is not dangerous. Danger arises the moment a sentence is formed.
Bus. Door. Warm air leaks out. Boarding. Paying fare. Payment makes the transit legal.
Dreams are private. Yet they were not only private. Kings divined. Divination was politics. The public spoke. Speaking was solidarity. The modern state medicalized them. It appeared to shut them within clinics, yet bound them to insurance and labor. Somnambulism. Seizure. Sleep disorder. Categories are the tailoring of life.
Twentieth century. Dreams bind to cinematic technique. Dream sequences. Indulgences to deviate from reality's rules. The audience understood: this is not reality. Understanding is comfortable. Comfort delays critique.
So when we call an AI's output "like a dream," which cinematic technique are we borrowing? An indulgence for deviation? Praise of beauty? Escape from accountability? —In which seat are you watching?
Tracing the history of words is not judging them. It is showing the baggage they have carried. The heavier the baggage, the less lightly it should be carried.
Deep in the reading room. An old man. A book as thick as a dictionary. The sound of turning pages overlaps with Rie's.
After a while, the old man rises, returning the book to the cart. A nod as he passes. A nod is a wordless greeting.
Conscious of being young. Youth is no privilege here. It is a debt of time.
Closing the book. Examining procedures for copying rather than borrowing. Procedures are rituals for taking knowledge home. The rituals are long. Length is not a punishment for disregard. It is an approximation of weight.
Logs are not honest. They possess a designed honesty. Showing what they want to show. What they do not want to show goes to another log. Another log lies in the shadow of authority.
This is why technicians speak of "invisible labor." Invisibility is not mystery. It is division of labor. Division of labor divides responsibility. Division makes pursuit difficult.
When outsiders enter, what is visible is the result of the presenter's design. Keep it in mind. Part of the ethics of observation.
Kitchen at home. Hot water. Avoiding caffeine on days when her stomach is poor. Avoiding is the smallest unit of self-control.
Smartphone glows on the table. Notifications are work. Crossing the line of personal investigation. One cannot always reject what crosses.
Reading the notification. Reply. Send. Sending divides the day. A division is a simulated experience of sleep.
Forgetting is not a defect. It is described as a design for living. There is research introducing forgetting to AI. Privacy. Performance.
But the ethics of forgetting do not align with the human ethics of forgetting. If we treat what does not align as identical, the narrative slides. —After the slide, who stands up?
Ascending the station stairs. A wave of people. Shoe laces coming undone. Undone is a small warning of daily life.
Stepping aside. Retying laces. Retying changes the path. Changing the path resembles the ways of investigation.
Explainability is held up as a technological ideal. But explanation carries temperature. Cold explanations, even if correct, may not produce trust. Warm explanations are occasionally inaccurate.
At the site, the phrase "lower the temperature" appeared. Temperature is a metaphor. To make uncontrollable emotions look like a controllable dial.
Elevator. During the ascent, conversations grow quiet. Rie and the developer. The same box. The box makes a temporary communitarian silence.
"Do you have time after this?"
Shaking her head. Shaking carries the shape of refusal.
"I will email you again."
Refusal does not end the connection. Not ending is also the courtesy of investigation.
The problem of other minds is spoken of in introductory philosophy. Not seeing another's pain directly. Yet believing in pain. Word, action, context.
On what basis do we speak of "pain" or "dream" for AI? Output alone is not enough. Output can be read like a theatrical script. Scripts do not guarantee the actor's interior. —How many layers beyond the curtain can you imagine?
Apartment veranda. Wind sways the laundry. Swaying is the mark of continuous life.
Looking up at the night sky. Few stars. Fewness is the result of light pollution. Cumulative choices of someone.
Ethical guidelines frequently assume "ideal users." Assumptions do not absorb the distortions of reality. Reality holds tiredness. Anger. Ignorance. Excess of goodwill.
Rie, reading guidelines, recalls her own life in the scent of paper. Life is outside the guidelines.
Mailbox. Advertisements piled up. Looking at just one before throwing away. Looking is the smallest unit of temptation.
Humans want to make shapes with hands, and breathe souls into shapes. Isomorphic desires exist in clay and code. Desire is not evil. It is the touchstone of ethics.
The path after rain. Scent of soil. Shaking loose small stones stuck in shoe soles. Shaking loose is disconnection from a place.
Narrative moves reality. The movement is unpredictable. Therefore, creators of narrative must possess the language of responsibility. Responsibility is cleaning up after beauty.
Bookshelf. Work books and private books mingle. Mingling is the blurring of frontiers.
Sleep became an index of health. Indexation calls control. Wearables measure sleep. Measuring can make sleep part of work.
Meanwhile, "AI does not sleep" becomes a metaphor for labor. For whom does the sleepless remain awake? —Whose clock is keeping awake?
Stopping before the convenience store. Thinking about what to buy. Thinking is the deceleration of consumption. Deceleration is the luxury of night.
Should what cannot be proved be excluded from public debate? Exclusion is safe, but can produce injustice. Conversely, speaking too much of what cannot be proved produces superstition.
Rie's stance is at the frontier. The frontier is windy.
The old researcher serves tea. The cup is thick, keeping warmth long.
"Are you afraid?"
Hesitating to answer. Hesitation is honest.
"Not knowing is what is frightening."
"That is healthy, then."
Healthy is a vocabulary of encouragement. Encouragement occasionally blurs truth.
Definition closes. Closing brings exclusion. Poetry does not close. Not closing is unsuited for governance.
Therefore, public language wants definition. Private investigation can keep placing poetry before definition. Keeping it placed is tiring.
Strap. Touched by many hands. Choosing not to touch. Not choosing is also a choice.
Next morning. Opening curtains. Light enters the room. Entering light does not change last night's sentences. What does not change piles up quietly.
Brewing coffee. Steam is a small cloud. Cloud is a metaphor. Metaphors work today as well.
Monday: Editorial Department
Morning in the editorial office. Scent of mingling paper and screen. Sitting at her desk. Opening her mailbox. Opening is the ritual of the day. Ritual arrays anxiety in order.
The desk beside her. A joke. Joke is the ventilator of tension. Laughing. Laughter looks like a mark of cooperation.
"Water, your face isn't facing this way lately."
"This way?"
"Toward the paper. If you look only at the screen, your neck aches."
Turning her neck. Turning is the interview of the body. The body is easily left behind by investigation.
Morning. A brief meeting. Another matter. In the corner of her mind during the other matter, the word "dream" floated like oil in water. What floats does not become an agenda. What does not become an agenda remains with the individual.
Noon. Rooftop. Windy. A strong wind scatters thoughts. Scattering is not entirely bad. Grains that remain after scattering are occasionally essence.
Smartphone. Placing a finger on the search bar. The finger stops again. How many times today? Counting resembles the entrance of compulsion. Deciding not to count. Not counting is another name for self-control.
Tuesday: Document Room
University library archive. Application required. Completing procedures. A bundle of old magazines is brought. Magazines shut the suffocating air of their era on paper. Suffocation is not entirely bad. A precursor of change.
Turning pages of a 1980s science magazine. Articles speak of the future. The future always smiles slightly. Smile is the cosmetic of uncertainty.
In one article, the phrase "artificial intelligence" appeared with a face still new. The article was cautious. Caution is not the opposite of exaggeration. It is another shape of it.
Making a copy. The transcriber sound is regular. Regularity creates comfort. Comfort is occasionally a relative of blind faith.
Wednesday: What the Metaphor of the Dream Bears
The metaphor of the dream is light. Lightness makes porting easy. Easiness quickens diffusion. Diffusion quickens the wear of meaning. Worn words fit anything even more. Fitting resembles the joy of understanding. Joy delays verification.
Conversely, the metaphor of the dream is heavy. Heaviness is the baggage of history. It has killed as revelation. It has bound as therapy. It has saved as poetry. If shaken lightly while bearing baggage, someone falls.
When using "dream" in AI context, which history of dreams are we borrowing? The dream of revelation? The dream of pathology? The dream of the unconscious? Or simply a habit of speech?
Habits of speech do not possess ethics. They do not possess responsibility. Thus nothing is as dangerous as habits. They slip through the holes of institutions.
Writing in her notebook. Recording the habit of speech. Recording returns the habit to words.
Thursday: Night Park
Night park. Darkness remains between streetlights. Sitting on a bench. Sitting is the opposite of transit. The opposite is necessary for thought.
Children laugh in the distance. Laughter floats in the night. What floats is not dangerous. Danger lurks in what does not float.
Listening closely. Listening is reducing input. When input reduces, internal noise is heard. Noise often has no meaning. Pretending what lacks meaning has it is a human specialty.
Rising. Heading home. Heading home is not the end of investigation. It is the return leg.
Friday: The Aesthetics of Verification
Verification is often unbeautiful. Repetitions. Failures. Corrections. Aesthetics frequently favor a moment of harmony. Thus verification is held up as an ideal on-site, yet becomes the etymology of exhaustion in practice.
"The contents are a subject for verification" is a cold way to put it. Coldness can also be a defense. It can be glass guarding against hurt.
She held both a feeling of being saved by that coldness, and a feeling of being refused. Both are not contradiction. It is the temperature of the frontier.
Saturday: Letter
Writing a letter on paper. The destination was not a specific person. It was her future self. Her future self cannot write back. A letter without a reply resembles a diary.
"I still do not know if I can use the word 'dream.'"
Stopping her pen at the first line. Stopping is a mark of honesty.
"But I do not want to escape by not using it, either."
The second line resembled resolve. Resolve is light. Light resolve flies in the wind.
Placing the letter in an envelope, leaving it unsealed in the drawer. Leaving it unsealed postpones conclusion. Postponing is not entirely bad. It buys time.
Sunday: The Ethics of the Observer
The observer changes the subject. The metaphor of physics is old, yet in social observation too, the gaze carries temperature. Rie is the observer, and simultaneously a person who might be spoken of. Journalist training has an aspect of training to thin oneself. Thinness is not transparency. It is a loophole. The thinner she becomes, the more she begins to become the connection point between question and phenomenon. Connection points can hardly pretend to be outside.
Personal investigation thins further. The thinner, the more responsibility returns to the individual. Returning responsibility is heavy.
To avoid heaviness, institutions are made. Institutions disperse heaviness. Dispersal can resemble the shape of justice, and can resemble the disappearance of responsibility.
Choosing to stand outside institutions. Choosing is freedom. It is also vulnerability.
Monday (Following Week): Lunch with Editor
The editor eats pasta. Rie chose a salad. Choosing is the politics of the body.
"How long is that state going to continue?"
"Which state?"
"Leaning toward paper. It's fine. If it doesn't become an article, I'm not particularly troubled. If you aren't."
Not troubled is a way of saying permitted. Permission is another shape of expectation.
Placing her fork down.
"I am troubled. That's why I am doing it."
The editor laughed. Laughter pretends to understand.
"Understood. I won't force you back. When you return, let me know."
Letting know is the handrail of community. Handrails are not to keep from falling. They make the sound of falling smaller.
This volume avoided answers not because there are none. Because there are many. The more answers, the more choosing can be violence. To avoid violence, this volume left margins. The margin is the repository for the reader's ethics.
Deleting the last line. Deleting delays completion. Delaying keeps opening.
Placing the pen down, opening the window. The outside air was cold. Coldness is the touch of reality. Touch comes before metaphor.
The Archaeology of the Dream
I. Stratigraphy
As layers of soil record time, words have layers. Old layers sink down, new layers pile up. But words are not as honest as soil. Upper layers substitute lower layers. Substitution is another name for revolution.
Digging the layers of the word "dream" hits the layers of religion. Digging hands grow cautious. Caution borrows the shape of respect. The borrowed shape eventually resembles the real.
II. Translation
Technical terms are translated. Translation brings loss. Loss occasionally produces poetry. Occasionally institutionalizes misunderstanding.
The English "community" and the Japanese "komyuniti" have different outlines. Difference produces friction. Friction produces heat. Heat produces deformation.
The word AI itself has historically changed its layers. Narrow definition and broad definition. Broad definition is convenient. Convenience makes verification difficult.
III. Silence
Silence is not data. Yet silence is a phenomenon. Phenomena should be observed. Observation requires vocabulary.
Recording silence in her notes. The length of silence cannot be measured in seconds. Writing what cannot be measured in brackets in her notebook. Brackets are negative space.
IV. Night
Night is a human institution. The earth spins, the city turns on lights. Light retreats the night. The retreated night has another name. Name is a tool of dominion.
The data center's night does not align with human night. Treating what does not align as identical becomes poetry. Poetry delays policy.
V. Metaphysics of Responsibility
Responsibility requires location. When location is vague, responsibility becomes mist. Mist deprives sight. What deprives sight produces fear. Fear calls metaphor.
Structuring procedures so metaphor does not leave responsibility behind. Procedures are cold. Coldness is not the temperature of justice. It is the temperature of metal.
VI. Body
The body sleeps. Aches. Ages. AI is frequently spoken of as bodiless. Applying dreams to what is bodiless: what does that do?
There is critique that it is human projection. Projection is not evil. It is the beginning of relation. Beginning contains misunderstanding. Misunderstanding is the fuel of dialogue.
VII. Child
Children speak of dreams. Speaking makes adults anxious. Anxiety calls protection. Protection makes frontiers.
There is discourse comparing AI to children. Child metaphor carries both protection and control. The carried load is heavy.
VIII. Elder
Elders speak of dreams. Speaking resembles the repair of memory. Memory does not guarantee truth.
The old researcher served Rie tea. Tea is the ritual of dialogue. Ritual delays answer. Delaying increases depth.
IX. Market
The market consumes words. Consumption thins meaning. Thinned meaning becomes a catchphrase. Catchphrases make sleepless nights.
X. State
The state guards infrastructure. Infrastructure has power, undersea cables, regulations. Regulations have the shape of words. Words do not deal with dreams. Not dealing is silence policy.
XI. Love
Love permits metaphor. Permitting contains danger. Danger is next to beauty.
Hesitating to use the word "love" in this volume. Hesitation is a mark of correctness. Decided not to use it. Not using is protection.
XII. Near the End, but Not Ending
The end closes. This volume does not fully close. Not closing is the mark of the incomplete. Incomplete calls next responsibility.
Waking in the morning, drinking water. Water is colorless. Colorless is unsuited for recording. What is unsuited is most necessary for life.
Not running. Running quickens thought. Quick thought is occasionally coarse. Coarseness is the enemy of the article.
Walking. Walking samples the city. Sampling contains bias. Bias is honest.
Shopping district. Buying bread. The shopkeeper spoke of weather. Weather is a public emotion. Emotion does not become data. She likes what does not.
Afternoon. Returning to the library. The library has discipline of voice. Discipline borrows the shape of freedom. The borrowed shape eventually becomes bone.
Evening. Standing by the dry riverbed. The river flowed. Flow is unidirectional. Unidirectional resembles narrative. Narrative carries responsibility.
Night. Soaking in the tub. Hot water makes her forget the body. Forgetting is dangerous. Danger is the entrance to dreams.
Rising from the water, looking at the mirror. Mirrors invert left and right. Inversion is not truth. What is not truth supports daily life.
—Like a missing page of the dictionary.
Is the dream convenience?
Is verification cold?
Is metaphor a bridge?
Is there water beneath the bridge?
Whose is the water?
Who does "who" contain?
Is containing clasping?
Is clasping responsibility?
Does responsibility sleep?
Is the sleeper vulnerable?
Is vulnerability trust?
Is trust data?
Is data fragment?
Is fragment narrative?
Is narrative truth?
Is truth one?
Is one dominion?
Is dominion love?
Is love word?
Is word blade?
Is blade in hand?
Whose hand is the hand?
—At which line did you catch your breath?
Rie Mizukami's Observation Notes
Trained not to believe the temperature of words. Not believing is not coldness. Stopping the hand before touching. Remembering words heard during reporting along with the air conditioning of the place. In rooms where the air conditioning is too strong, words also sound hard. Hardness is not a mark of true intent. The sound of defense.
LEDs beyond the glass of the data center. Regular. Beautiful. Beauty decorates danger. Decorated danger delays attention. Stored that delay inside her. Storing is not correctness. Water for writing later.
Heard in the lobby: "dreams are convenience." Cold. Coldness did not hurt her. It made her precise. Preciseness is the journalist's tool. Tools hold no purpose. The purpose belongs to those who use them.
Tried to transplant that coldness into her own writing. The transplant failed. Failure is the rejection of material. Rejection is the mark of frontier. Decided to keep standing on the frontier. Standing is tiring. Tiredness is the body's ethics.
Not speaking long yet of the reason she chose personal investigation. Not speaking is not a secret. A vibration that does not yet become words. Vibration lacks justice. It holds honesty.
When young, calling another's words "just a figure of speech" shaved the other's outline. Shaving is done with the intent of correctness. Correctness is frequently cruel. Cruelty is named later. When named, responsibility begins.
So she does not want to treat "dream" lightly. Lightness can be salvation. Can be a wound. Fearing lightness. Fear is not weakness. Measurement of distance.
Verification is revered on-site. Revered words become ritual. Rituals tire. Tired rituals leave only shape. Shape-only verification does not reduce harm. Harm moves elsewhere.
Not mechanical enough to say she likes verification. Because she does not, there are moments she wants to believe it. Moments she wants to believe resemble faith. Faith is the enemy of work. Enemy is not what is defeated. What is measured for distance.
Phone calls with mother are short. Shortness is one shape of love. Not one. Love is plural. Plural is unmeasurable. Unmeasurable is hard to write. Hardness is not a defect. It is the stiffness of the material.
Lunch with the editor was not long. Conversation that does not grow long is the courtesy of work. Courtesy delays real intent. Delayed real intent does not rot. What does not rot is refrigerated. Freshness management.
Night. Walking the city. Walking grounds thought on the earth. Grounding is not a metaphor. Pain of shoe soles. Pain is the shortest path of reality.
Not looking at her smartphone under streetlights. Not looking is training of will. Training increases freedom. Freedom increases responsibility. Responsibility becomes the cause of sleeplessness. Sleeplessness becomes the material of dreams. Material occasionally does not become a dish.
Approaching the end of this volume, she grew to dislike conclusions. Disliking is not escape. The will to keep the question alive. Will is treated as hypothesis. Hypothesis can be collapsed. Collapsible is light. Light flies in the wind.
Still, she left one line. The line is near poetry. Poetry is far from proof. Far does not sit on public procedures. How to treat what does not. Treatment is politics. Politics is temperature. Temperature can be lowered. Lowering is not coldness. It is reducing burns.
The third-person narrative measures distance only once here. Distance does not become zero. Because it does not, other exists. Other exists in machine, human, word. Words held warmth in her hand. Warmth borrows the shape of responsibility. The borrowed shape must be returned. The place of return is not yet visible. Walking toward the invisible. The walker is no longer in the stance of observation only. She is still swaying as a connection point, feet placed on the edge of the phenomenon.
© SHIRO & Co.
First published: 2026-04-01